Unsent text message to Christopher

Still feel used, I guess anything is better than being with me. You never explained why you watch me? Is it to watch me burn myself over you?

You know, I have an OCD about touching things or people.. like my hands will get dirty and the bacteria will have a dance party on my hand. I keep a hand sanitizer on my bag just in case I need it. And you know this about me. So you wouldn’t dare to hold my hands when we saw each other. But.. you didn’t know this…

Why won’t you protect me

The way I protect you?

Why must I beg for safety

When love should see me through…

When I found out you had her cut your hair before our date I can’t lie I was repulsed. I’m glad I found out the truth, you’re still a two timer who lies to get what you want from people. But I still miss you. And our friendship. But you crossed the line and made me think this was gonna be something real. I had to let…

You’re a shut-in, and a burn-out, and I’ve never liked someone so much for all the potential they COULD have had.

Crazy that you’re recently 30 and still have all the emotional and ****** maturity of a fumbling virgin.

What you’re doing to me is cruel, cowardly, and juvenile, especially for someone I thought had some…

A Hail Mary.

Evidence of an open door.

My last attempt to rebuild that damn bridge.

Or, consider it nothing. Meaningless. Silly. Immature. Annoying. Toss it in the trash…