Unsent text message to Bailey

If you finally messaged me back you did so on the wrong account. I deleted that one and no longer have access to it, try the other one, please. good or bad.

I never thought you two would ever be with each other. I know I don’t own anyone but damn I can’t believe you guys would date considering we broke up coz you said you are incapable of loving and you dating him considering you are my friend and you knew about us.

As much as I don’t want things to be about me, but I…

The month of September flew by in a sea of smoke and pills. The crushed up remainders of prescriptions you forgot to fill. I don't remember how I loved you, I can't recall the things I've said. But darling you showed me I wasn't really dead. And I learned to be alive when I've reached my deepest low. Standing ankle…

Today, I revealed that I've resented her for years and my love is long gone. That her abusive nature is why I'm as distant as I am. Maybe if you were still by my side, I would've had the courage to go all the way. I guess we'll never know.

I'm exhausted from trying to fix things with you. I'm exhausted from trying my hardest to trust you again. Your b******* excuses don't help your case in the slightest. Please understand, if you cannot stop lying through your teeth, I am going to disappear out of your life.

A question has been on my mind for a while.

At what point does one's actions become unforgivable? Is it possible to understand that I've changed? Have you? Am I capable of forgiving you? Are you capable of doing the same for me?

Sometimes I hope the answer will be like a lighthouse finally navigating this ship to…