Unsent text message to Faith

Three weeks, J. I know you’re hurting just as much as I am. How could you? I miss you every single day. I threw up when you broke it off. I spiraled. I lost sleep. I missed work.

Did you lose sleep, too?

I got your note in the box of my things you sent back. I want to write you a letter but every time I do, the anger I…

Hey Handsome,

I’ve been climbing castle stairs and rolling hills. I’ve seen eclipses, picturesque landscapes, historical sites, and shooting stars.

I picked up Jane Austen’s Persuasion again, god I love that book so damn much.

I’ve added more titles to my library and some History, Geography and Geology to boot…

You asked me to need you less, I practiced that and now you’re unnecessary.

I miss you so damn much. Nothing makes sense, nothing matters anymore. Why keep going when all the light and warmth in my world has been snuffed out? I miss your smile, I miss your voice, I miss your body, I miss you. I miss talking to you, telling you important things, silly things, anything. I miss your touch, I…

sometimes I really do wonder how I'll look back at this as years go by.

will I sigh lovingly or disappointedly?

"oh, I was so in love"? or "oh, I was so foolish"?

maybe all of the above…

Today I found out that the Monstera Bulbasaur is a thing. It’s a variegated cultivar of a Monstera Deliciosa (one of my favorite plants). Anyway… I thought you would it think it was cool… if you were here… and I could tell you about it.