Unsent text message to Nicholas

Why are you still here? You don't hold onto "us" in any regard. The marriage isn't important to you. You hold onto the completed divorce paperwork like it's a security blanket. You spend your evenings on the opposite side of the house. Don't you want a whole space that's yours? Don't you want to be able to live the…

We were just destroying each other further. Maybe it was the wrong thing to do, I don’t know.

I love you and wish the best for you. Truly. I hope you’re reading this.

I’m sorry for everything. Maybe this no contact will help just a little, I truly hope so.

Goodbye.

Hey buddy. What u been into?not much here just living my life and loving every ******* second. How long are u going to keep up the charade? I know that u been ******* her. I've known you for years. I know when you're lying. You get awfully quiet when her name comes up. Just drop the stupid act. It isn't necessary. You…

I’m done chasing you. You haven’t changed. You’re still scared. So I’m not reaching out, I’m not checking on you. I’m moving on. I loved you with everything in me and it still wasn’t enough. Outsiders can influence you more than being with me ever could, so I’m done. I wish you well, but good bye.

The wound you gifted me hasn't healed,

but it will.

Someday.

The way a scar is formed…

you had dreams that I got sucked into when we met. I was going to do anything to make them happen. I gave you everything I could to build that dream I only hope you don't let that dream die. I loved you more than you know I cared more than you know I lived my life doing my best to make you happy but I couldn't in the…