Unsent text message to Abigail

I’m done chasing you. You haven’t changed. You’re still scared. So I’m not reaching out, I’m not checking on you. I’m moving on. I loved you with everything in me and it still wasn’t enough. Outsiders can influence you more than being with me ever could, so I’m done. I wish you well, but good bye.

The wound you gifted me hasn't healed,

but it will.

Someday.

The way a scar is formed…

you had dreams that I got sucked into when we met. I was going to do anything to make them happen. I gave you everything I could to build that dream I only hope you don't let that dream die. I loved you more than you know I cared more than you know I lived my life doing my best to make you happy but I couldn't in the…

I want to hear your voice again and hear how you’re doing. I have so many questions waiting to be answered by you it feels like. Every time something happens i’m reaching out to you so I can tell you and I’m snapped back to the reality that I lost that with you. I’m wondering what you’re up to when I make plans and go…

I‘m sorry i love you so much and im really sorry i wish i didn‘t lie about something so dumb. I thought you wouldnt care and i thought its really not important but im so sorry I apologize. I know us being together and talking will end soon i can feel it in how you talk with me and how you treat me. But im really sorry…

when my daughter looked up at you and asked, "are you my daddy?" and i got real scared until i realized you had a blue shirt on & then you called me by name and i just looked at you with the most intense confusion. we were right down the street from where they were conceived.

i just have one question:

WHAT THE ****?