Unsent text message to Jordan

I loved what I felt for you, and I won't be ashamed of it. But I can't keep standing in the same place waiting for something that may never come. So I'll slowly let go; not because you didn't matter, but because I matter too.

What if we didn’t need the next life to meet again?

Take me back to the night we met. I need to tell you every single day you are enough and you are loved.

Raven still loves you.

Only not with me.

I’m not sad, I’ve actually come to terms with it. But the thought you’ve moved on with a person and doing the things we promised each other we’d do. That hurts.

I don’t think either of us planned to leave one another, it just happened to be. When we were so in love, we gave each other hope of a family…

But it doesn’t really feel fine. You say you like me and want to be with me. Yet you don’t look at me that way. You don’t talk to me like I’m any more special than a friend. If I don’t physically touch you in some way, we will go days without ever touching. You want us to move in together but you haven’t said I love…

I just cried because of how much I miss you. Watched a video about how do you know when to stop being friends and date each other. I don’t know too. Hoping you just realise that I am here waiting for you. Just really need you now will save me so much anxiety from life. I really ******* need you. Why does loving you…