Unsent text message to Karen

Only not with me.

I’m not sad, I’ve actually come to terms with it. But the thought you’ve moved on with a person and doing the things we promised each other we’d do. That hurts.

I don’t think either of us planned to leave one another, it just happened to be. When we were so in love, we gave each other hope of a family…

But it doesn’t really feel fine. You say you like me and want to be with me. Yet you don’t look at me that way. You don’t talk to me like I’m any more special than a friend. If I don’t physically touch you in some way, we will go days without ever touching. You want us to move in together but you haven’t said I love…

I just cried because of how much I miss you. Watched a video about how do you know when to stop being friends and date each other. I don’t know too. Hoping you just realise that I am here waiting for you. Just really need you now will save me so much anxiety from life. I really ******* need you. Why does loving you…

I just want to be done with all this.

You don’t even love me. You never did.

Sometimes, I wish I could erase you from my life completely.

I am so tired and exhausted of still loving you after you left me 8 months ago…

I wish I didn't. Its not like our relationship was good torwards the end. But I miss how we were in highschool before we tried long distance. We were so young and happy and full of love. I thought the world of you and I thought nothing could stand in our way. But then long distance came and we grew apart. I still…

Finally. I know I'm late to the party on this. I didn't feel sad at the end. Just thought of you.