Unsent text message to Heather

It annoys me when you call me dude as if we were nothing :( Can you STOP doing that? I don’t care if I’m being dramatic and it’s just a nickname. I know I say bro so I’m a hypocrite but whatever. I’m a hypocrite and I’m dramatic but you should know that about me already. SO STOP! 🐼

I could feel that you know. You lightly bumping into me as we stood by the fire that night. While you talked to your friend on your left you swayed like there was music playing, bumping into me again and again and again. Not hard but enough a normal person would say “ohh sorry”. I know you were not drunk, I have seen…

“Why would I take all this time to become me, just to listen to you?”

If things are different tomorrow,

it's okay

thank you

for loving me today.

You dumped me out of the blue and never gave me a real reason why.

I asked if it was the guy YOU brought into our relationship that caused issues and you said no to me, while attacking my friends calling me a cheater.

Well that guy stood by me after you left. Now that guy is standing by me after I’ve got a job I…

I can't control it, i lose myself in it. I love people, i love being in love, i love sharing my life with someone special. But it's not safe anymore, not after getting hurt so many many many times. Do i fall in love too easily? Am i too desperate? Do i get carried away too much??

I'm starting theraphy in a few months…