Unsent text message to Brandon

I can't control it, i lose myself in it. I love people, i love being in love, i love sharing my life with someone special. But it's not safe anymore, not after getting hurt so many many many times. Do i fall in love too easily? Am i too desperate? Do i get carried away too much??

I'm starting theraphy in a few months…

Thank you for being there for me during one of the hardest moments of my life. Until I met you, I had never felt comfortable enough to be so completely open and vulnerable with someone. It was such a unique feeling, and honestly, it almost overwhelmed me at times. Even though we’re over now, I’ll never forget all the…

Overestimated your humanity, before. Now I’m overestimating your capability. My protections are enough. No matter what my nightmares say, you’re not Chuckie, you’re just some sad dude that hates me and can’t do **** about it, again.

One more foggy morning, one more trip down memory lane. What is there even left to remember? The only true thing I remember is your name. Everything else is just my imagination, or the memories of things I imagined in the past. The only thing I remember is the feeling you left in me. Or the feeling I grew for you…

You said I could trust you, you said I was your happy, then you just ghosted me. No reason no explanation. Just silence. Then to block and unfriend me with no explanation. How can I trust you when you always do this?

Loving you was exhausting.