Unsent text message to Barbara

I am desperate. I am in so much emotional pain. I miss talking to you so much. You could just make everything all right again if you just ******* picked up the phone and texted me. You’re ******* me.

Nothing new.

Nothing surprising.

Nothing that matters...

But I do all the same…

I came here to vent my feelings and HOPED he felt the same! Not for people to mock, harass, or pretend to be someone I love.

Some of yall need to really figure things out.

It’s not okay and I would NEVER hurt the man I love. I never meant to and if I did make him angry with me,

I AM SORRY…

I hate being mean I hate this I thought you really meant something yk but I get I js thought about it tm im sry I think I Ned space I js wan lyk im here whenever you want to talk but ig will meet at another time I js see sm in you and I wanted see you so bad im Literally always asking my mom this is like torture and…

There’s a part of me that knows you were never the person I thought you were.. The first few months we were together you presented as a much different individual. So intentional. So loving. But things changed over the years and you became a stranger that I do not recognize. You claim I’m one of your favorite people…

You’re not that far, I’ll walk. Or I’ll get a ride from my mom like I used to lol. Or if I ask, I’m sure you’ll come get me, and bring me home.

I don’t wanna talk, I just want to lie in bed with you. We can cuddle, and I’ll have my head on your chest again. We can kiss, or just stare into each other’s eyes… god you…