Unsent text message to David

When you first reopened the door I thought maybe this was going to be a new step forward for us having any type of connection. I felt excited and hoped for things to work out in the best possible way. Then when you changed your mind and you mentioned the past it really stung. It’s not like I didn’t want to give you…

I'm not a guy. I'm a woman. The name is pronounced Just-een, not Justin. I'm a female. The fact is, had I been a boy, my name would have been Justin. But I'm definitely a female. I'm just sick of being misconstrued as a guy because people can't pronounce my damn name. Just a PSA.

I’m tired of always being the one making the effort for someone who barely makes any. I keep showing up, caring, trying, and giving you my time, while you leave me on read for three days like it’s nothing. I’m done chasing basic consideration. I deserve the same energy I give. Bye.

You are such a **** human being for leaving me. You are a coward and loser. I am happy that you left. You don't deserve me. All these months, I have tried my best to give you everything you need. And you see one mental breakdown of me, and you leave! You are disgusting. I wish I never met you.

Did you really think I’d get better if you left? Really?

So if I am correct I will be the writer sometimes and other times I will be the one who is being written to!! Also it could be nothing to do with me or anyone I might know!! The interpretation of it is mine to bear or not anyone right!! Instead of the old me just bumping my gums and being vulgar playing the blame…