Unsent text message to Sean

I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what’s happening, what’s real - all I know is I love you and I can’t live without you. You told me you will love me in all our lives and that you wanted to try again in the next one. I can’t be without you, my love. So I’ll meet you in the next life. If you’re already there I’ll…

You became a chapter I never expected to care about this much. Somewhere between the little conversations, the stolen glances, the awkward hellos, and all the moments I kept replaying in my head, I fell for you.

You will always be my favorite chapter, but sadly, you became my worst ending. I’ll always be grateful for…

I’m tryin to date again. But it’s so hard. The last time I tried. I went with you for almost 6months, when you pulled away I felt it. But I still held on. Even after you told me no… I still held on.. and some piece of me After you blocked me.. well i still hold on. I can’t just get attached and let go so easily. And…

No idea whats going on *** is happening.

Hey Babe,

Thank you for last night.

Thank you for holding up your end of the bargain.

Thank you for gently tethering me, like a fragile bird taking flight…

I dont know anything that's going on. If im involved with something, can i be like talked to? Like, im a very anxious person. Please spit it out.