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I'm thinking I get a panic attack about my ****** loveife
It's bothering me so long I feel so bad about it and I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to find someone or something meaningful, I go out, I'm in a course, I try dating apps, I'm working on myself and it's still just not enough. I don't even get chances. I'm also completely inexperienced.
I know I'm not old I'm 27, but I stand here feeling the same with 17, should I wait another 10 years just to be at the exact same point till nothing happens...
I don't know what I can do about myself anymore. I'm in thetapy, I lost 5 cloth sizes, I try new things and it means nothing. I'm still alone, I don't even make friendships that really stay, Irl. Online it worked and I met them rarely tho but at least they exist.
It made me so worried about me, what if I'm just ******* ugly? I asked multiple different people and they all told me I look average or normal. Maybe it was my smell but even a close friend has told me I smell totally normal as well. Many have called me their best friend so I gonna assume my personality... So no idea what's wrong with me.
Do I have to first die in someone arms to be hugged again?
It sometimes scares me so incredibly much. I don't want to feel like this but I also don't want to just ignore it till it's too late. I know crying about it won't make it better but I really don't know what to do.
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