Unsent text message to Ella

____, I wanted you and I needed you this time. I was hurting for you so bad. For almost three weeks! And you weren't there. Sometimes I would be driving and think about you and just start crying, but everything you said and how you were acting that last night made me feel like there was no hope. Yet I hoped..I hoped…

Because of one guy, my family doesn’t trust me anymore. I feel like I’ve lost myself trying to hold on to someone who couldn’t even choose me.

My dad is genuinely the sweetest man, but now he wants me to stay home and prepare for exams. I’m not even allowed to get a job and try to build a life for myself.

My own family…

deal?

🤞

I’ll never forgive you

We're relearning what it's like to be lonely away from each other. As if this loneliness is something you easily forget. Ive had 30 years of it lol. But only one of us is truly going to be alone. The other- chasing illusions on social media and dating apps and raves. Theres a real woman somewhere, has to be, something…

Omg ur mind that's what attracted me to you in the first place b4 I met you when we were just still just sending messages I remember thinking finally found one that is actually intelligent that I can talk to without rolling my eyes thinking omg she's a moron u know the type... that's why we clicked instantly u could…

I know I don't express that enough to u and I know I have issues showing or speaking my feelings a lot of the times or in the right way cuz words are hard but u truly are everything I ever wanted or needed in a woman! Ur stunningly beautiful so much so I catch myself creepingly staring just in a daze like when were at…