Unsent text message to James

25 years ago we exchanged promises we sang we danced and I could see heaven, today you have betrayed, disrespected and ended it all and I glare into the abyss wondering where do I go from here? Who would have believed in this day all those days and months ago that such highs can lead to such lows. I guess though you…

If I was to reach out soon by sending you a banana emoji would you respond? Would you be angry? Would you be annoyed? Would you be indifferent? Would you be happy? Would you be relieved?

If you sent me the banana emoji I would be happy because it could mean you do care and it wasn’t all a lie. If you sent it, I would…

Hey Babe,

It’s raining and I’m drained today…

Conversely, I’m really happy with the way things are going. We’ve made massive strides in the last 48hrs, I’m still so proud of us both for making adjustments, learning and healing along the way.

Please remember to caffeinate and eat lots, looks like you may need it today…

Until you contact me, until you come back, all that bad comes back with you. Id rather die, than feel how you want me to feel In life. The nightmares, the memories, that hideous Cheshire grin, it all comes back. You created this hell for me, so stay away, far away. Far enough away your never a thought. Lay in the hole…

I appreciate that you are trying to clear matters up. I understand that the Krabby Patty Business is well respected and above board in all matters. The management team is zealous in their performance. The secret formula is in little danger. I would exhort security to continue to find and delete any paperwork that…

I haven't stopped loving you. I have just reached a point where I can't keep doing this anymore.

You hurt me so many times; you've behaved so badly. And your friends have too. And what hurts most is that you never really acknowledged it or tried to repair the damage.

I spent so long trying to understand you. Your fears…