Unsent text message to Melissa

I still think about you from time to time. Sometimes I go through the sad tiktoks i saved when you left me.

I know I'm the one who ghosted you but you didn't even try to reach out to me. Did I mean nothing to you? The hurt you gave me... I will never recover. I mask the pain. I can try to move on all I want but you're…

I never found another one.

After being with someone else for a year now i can definitely say our connection was special. I knew it was then but i definitely know now that isn't a connection u just get with anyone. Me and her never had anything remotely close to that connection that we had. I said then it was special and i still believe that…

You try to steal phone calls or the time between our son and I.

You try to steal the physical days and time between us.

You try to steal my single parenting of another child.

You stole my love, money,and much more…

I’ve never known how you’ve ever actually felt about me. I don’t know what we ever were to each other. You made me question so much. After everything you’ve popped up every now and then. But you’d never give me any straight answers.

But some part of me still misses you. I know that I need to just keep moving forward. I know. Too many years have gone by.. I could never ask you to look back now.

And still.. every now and then, I close my eyes and I wish I could go back... home. Missing you is the last thing I have left I guess.

Still rooting for you…