Unsent text message to Jared

You try to steal phone calls or the time between our son and I.

You try to steal the physical days and time between us.

You try to steal my single parenting of another child.

You stole my love, money,and much more…

I’ve never known how you’ve ever actually felt about me. I don’t know what we ever were to each other. You made me question so much. After everything you’ve popped up every now and then. But you’d never give me any straight answers.

But some part of me still misses you. I know that I need to just keep moving forward. I know. Too many years have gone by.. I could never ask you to look back now.

And still.. every now and then, I close my eyes and I wish I could go back... home. Missing you is the last thing I have left I guess.

Still rooting for you…

Home, lying here, wishing you were next to me. Perhaps in my dreams.

I want off this ******* planet 🙏

I’ve been thinking a lot about how hard it’s been for me these past few years to learn how to love myself and see myself the way you once saw me. I don’t think I ever fully understood how much it meant to be loved by someone who genuinely respected me, saw the good in me, and made me feel worthy of being loved. I…