Unsent text message to Faith

I never found another one.

After being with someone else for a year now i can definitely say our connection was special. I knew it was then but i definitely know now that isn't a connection u just get with anyone. Me and her never had anything remotely close to that connection that we had. I said then it was special and i still believe that…

You try to steal phone calls or the time between our son and I.

You try to steal the physical days and time between us.

You try to steal my single parenting of another child.

You stole my love, money,and much more…

I’ve never known how you’ve ever actually felt about me. I don’t know what we ever were to each other. You made me question so much. After everything you’ve popped up every now and then. But you’d never give me any straight answers.

But some part of me still misses you. I know that I need to just keep moving forward. I know. Too many years have gone by.. I could never ask you to look back now.

And still.. every now and then, I close my eyes and I wish I could go back... home. Missing you is the last thing I have left I guess.

Still rooting for you…

Home, lying here, wishing you were next to me. Perhaps in my dreams.