Unsent text message to Joshua

How your decisions can lead us both to a lifetime of loneliness in the longing place while we both continue to suppress each others’ existence, as we move about in worlds and houses where we remind ourselves of our blessings…

I read your words. The past year has been so dark for me. I’m sorry if it’s hard for you too…

Knock me down Drown me out I don’t know what I’m sorry about Change your mind You won’t change mine I’m not giving up this time

I've been thinking about everything a lot lately.

It's strange looking back and comparing it to where I am now. I think I've slowly picked up the shattered pieces and glued them back together. It doesn't look the same- most of the pieces are still there, but some had to be let go. The arrangement and colours are…

Hey L,

Do you ever think about me? Or is the life you're living now what you want it to be?

Does he bring you joy? The man who apparently hurt you, did nothing for you, and destroyed the person you used to be?

Or was that all lies too? Was anything you, or your family told me ever true…

For much of our relationship we were unhappy. Seriously please be happy I hope you have no more excuses and no more blame with your new partner I hope you are so incredibly happy because believe it or not I always wanted that for you. I hope you actually do everything you said I stopped you from. I hope you get all of…

remember when you asked me what you can do to help me handle your times where you need isolation? remember my response, where i said needing alone time is healthy normal and perfectly acceptable to me? emotional abandonment isn’t, especially when you are dealing with someone with BPD. and do you remember that we…