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remember when you asked me what you can do to help me handle your times where you need isolation? remember my response, where i said needing alone time is healthy normal and perfectly acceptable to me? emotional abandonment isn’t, especially when you are dealing with someone with BPD. and do you remember that we agreed the way to avoid me crashing out over it is to explain to me that our normal way of communicating will not be available until you are ready to come back. i would always wait patiently if that’s how it went.
the way you act when i’ve done nothing to upset you and the way you act when i have upset you is the exact. same. thing. i need to know that you aren’t angry at me. and yet i STILL sent that message letting you know i’m here. i watch your snap score climb hundreds a day as my messages remain purposely unopened constantly. it hurts and you know it dysregulates me when you just disappear. and you don’t disappear from the world, just me. yet you insist it isn’t about me. you don’t have the energy for someone who is “your everything” but you have the energy for everyone else?
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