Unsent text message to Mary

even recognize each other anymore

we didn’t know each other

we just sleep walked together

for a strange moment in time.

The pain and suffering I’ve felt these past 3 months after the betrayal and discard, have left me shattered. I’ve never experienced so much pain and confusion. Yet I still love you and think of you every minute of every day. I wasn’t perfect but I didn’t deserve the way you went about things. And to block me and never…

Something I never got the chance to say.

Its 930pm. I'm taking the kids for ice cream. When we get back, I'm gonna excuse myself for a few hours.

I'm gonna come by your place. I'm willing to bet the farm, double down on it, that all hell will break lose.

I'm not stupid like you need me to be.

Don't be offended come Monday when I blow you off. 0

****, I wish I could call you to read to me!

I wish you understood how much it’s destroying me and how painful it is for me. You threw in my face that I don’t care and don’t feel pain, but that’s far from the truth. Sometimes I would rather die than carry this pain and regret with me. ****, I still love you so much. I wish that wasn’t our goodbye.