Unsent text message to Maya

Somebody told me you wished me a happy birthday.

I kinda just want you to act like I don't exist anymore though. No passing glances in hallways, no trying to catch each other's eyes while walking to separate classes, no more **** like that.

I'm a stranger, you're a stranger. I don't wanna remember your name, you should…

I really do love you I think. Like for real. When I saw you in county I knew from that moment this is my man. I love u and I shouldn’t. ****

I’d take the drugs over that atp…

I didn’t sleep at all Last night. I think I’ve finally made a decision on what I need to do. I need to make sure that I never see you again. I need to stop texting you. You have moved on. I need to stop wondering how you are because I’m not taking you back no matter how much I’ll always love you. You never loved me…

I think of texting you, but there’s nothing to say. I play instrumental music that comes to me for my absence of words. Times tears roll down my cheek while I’m playing. I think of sending to you. But there’s nothing today, you choose a life without me, and that’s okay. I do miss you though, no one will compare. I…

You’re all I ever wanted, you’re my life, my moon shining in the dark sky. U were everything now I have nothing.