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I didn’t sleep at all Last night. I think I’ve finally made a decision on what I need to do. I need to make sure that I never see you again. I need to stop texting you. You have moved on. I need to stop wondering how you are because I’m not taking you back no matter how much I’ll always love you. You never loved me. I’ve made my decision. I’m sorry that I cannot tell you what that is because you are not part of my life anymore. But after your hearing is when it will happen. I cannot be where you have broken my heart and my soul. I cannot be where you destroyed me. I cannot live knowing I’ve been used for 20 years and never loved. I cannot live knowing you have had a secret life I knew nothing about. I used to tell you that all the time. It’s like you have a secret life. And you would get mad. Now I know why. I was onto you. Never be onto a narc. You humiliated me. You ripped my heart in two. You ******* me in the back more than I can count. And never an apology. You only cared about yourself. I was nothing to you. Everyone but me knew it. How I wish I could get those 20 years back. I’d give anything. I never would have met you. Funny. Our first movie was the break up. If that wasn’t foreshadowing. You taught me a lot. You taught me to never trust anyone. Don’t believe anyone. Don’t ever fall in love again. Just stay by myself. That’s what you taught me. You taught me to be afraid. That’s a sad rest of my life. I would like to wish you well. But I can’t. And I don’t. I wish you hell. You are depraved. You are evil. You are garbage. You are trash. And you will burn in hell. And someday you will be all alone. That’s on you. I kept those vows. You made yours up. I’ll be gone and you will never see me again nor hear from me again by the first of the year. I promise you that. I’ve always kept my promises to you. And that’s one I will keep. You will never know if I am dead or alive. You will know nothing. Out of your life like you told all your lovers. I hope that gives you comfort. Goodbye Jason. Enjoy your new bachelor pad.
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