Unsent text message to Faith

I’d take the drugs over that atp…

I didn’t sleep at all Last night. I think I’ve finally made a decision on what I need to do. I need to make sure that I never see you again. I need to stop texting you. You have moved on. I need to stop wondering how you are because I’m not taking you back no matter how much I’ll always love you. You never loved me…

I think of texting you, but there’s nothing to say. I play instrumental music that comes to me for my absence of words. Times tears roll down my cheek while I’m playing. I think of sending to you. But there’s nothing today, you choose a life without me, and that’s okay. I do miss you though, no one will compare. I…

You’re all I ever wanted, you’re my life, my moon shining in the dark sky. U were everything now I have nothing.

I can finally talk to you without a pit in my stomach when I pick up our daughter. I can finally look at you without anger sadness or pain. I still think you're beautiful but I can finally accept you're not mine anymore. I can finally accept that I can start moving on and forward. I'm getting back into health fitness…

If you needed to hurt me for you to be ok, then I gladly take the pain. If being with me was making you miserable, then I am glad you broke your promise. I hadn't thought about it this way until today, I had read some other perspectives, ones that made me cry. They were so full of pain from having to walk away from…