Unsent text message to Rachel

I know it’s been about.. two months of not talking. I still miss you. I still wish things didn’t have to end but… they did. I’m not betting on it but if we could make things work I’d like to focus on that in a heartbeat. But then I’d.. really have to ask what changed. On my end I’ve found new hobbies, gained my…

My family held me and cried with me when I finally told them what you did to me. I let them see how much I was hurting. I needed them, and they were there. For a little while, I didn’t have to carry it all alone.

Why can you just tell me what you want?

I’m so tired of these games and mazes. I ******* am.

I told you so many ******* times I don’t get it. I’m dense. I can’t decode it. If you just told me there was a video at a specific time tonight I would have joined.

Is this always going to be our relationship? Codes and fake…

We were both in a certain phase in our life that we had to grow out of. I ****** up but we were in it together you know? It just didn’t work out, it’s nobodies fault really. We just were in 2 different places and I have to learn to accept that. It’ll be okay for both of us.

I love you and I don’t know how you’re knowingly doing this to me right now. You’re such a coward. I just wish you would come home.

Ooooooo, IT'S. FRICKING. ON! 🤣