Unsent text message to Jackson

My family held me and cried with me when I finally told them what you did to me. I let them see how much I was hurting. I needed them, and they were there. For a little while, I didn’t have to carry it all alone.

Why can you just tell me what you want?

I’m so tired of these games and mazes. I ******* am.

I told you so many ******* times I don’t get it. I’m dense. I can’t decode it. If you just told me there was a video at a specific time tonight I would have joined.

Is this always going to be our relationship? Codes and fake…

We were both in a certain phase in our life that we had to grow out of. I ****** up but we were in it together you know? It just didn’t work out, it’s nobodies fault really. We just were in 2 different places and I have to learn to accept that. It’ll be okay for both of us.

I love you and I don’t know how you’re knowingly doing this to me right now. You’re such a coward. I just wish you would come home.

Ooooooo, IT'S. FRICKING. ON! 🤣

My stomach, my heart, my mental health. I Just want closure after bearing my heart and soul to you in thr letter. I havent slept or eaten well in weeks. I cry every night. I miss you so much. I just want your arms around me and selfies of your melt me every night smile. My chest is about to explode. Im not begging for…