Unsent text message to Patricia

howww can you say i have spare time and i can be supportive of you? how? first of all i have no idea what you need help with because you not told me second! how tf do you know what goes on in my life OH YEAH YOU DON'T lastly!! UM!!! do you have any fxxxing idea how horribly traumatized i am right now do you do you do…

I know we won't ever be together again the bridge has been burned. You made sure there was no coming back. I still miss you though. I miss your smile when you looked up at me I miss playing around the kitchen running after and from you giddily sliding across the vinyl floors. I miss the way you pronounce "crooked" as…

I wish you had left me with more compassion. I wish the ending had at least reflected some of the love that we shared. I never knew you were capable of being this person. I truly hope it comes back around.

I'm totally and crazily in love with you and that's the truth. I hate lying and hate people who lie and that's why it's been even harder because I realized some time ago that I have been lying about my feelings for you.

To tell you the truth I fell in love with you when you sent me a recording of your song all those…

I got terrible sleep last night. I was up until 2:30am unable to sleep because I am sick and couldn’t breathe. And then I got up at 6am and handled life things all day, work and stuff. And now, I need, genuinely NEED a good night of sleep. And I never told you this bc I think it’d be a weird thing to say, and I want…

about a reality where I can be with you. One where we're both healed and we don't hurt each other anymore.

I wish for it so much that it hurts.

hb