Unsent text message to Stephanie

I wish you had left me with more compassion. I wish the ending had at least reflected some of the love that we shared. I never knew you were capable of being this person. I truly hope it comes back around.

I'm totally and crazily in love with you and that's the truth. I hate lying and hate people who lie and that's why it's been even harder because I realized some time ago that I have been lying about my feelings for you.

To tell you the truth I fell in love with you when you sent me a recording of your song all those…

I got terrible sleep last night. I was up until 2:30am unable to sleep because I am sick and couldn’t breathe. And then I got up at 6am and handled life things all day, work and stuff. And now, I need, genuinely NEED a good night of sleep. And I never told you this bc I think it’d be a weird thing to say, and I want…

about a reality where I can be with you. One where we're both healed and we don't hurt each other anymore.

I wish for it so much that it hurts.

hb

I don't think you're a terrible person. I don't think I ever could.

I'm sorry everything feels like a cold and dark nightmare.

I wanted to send you this song I was listening to. I think you'd like it.

Don't worry, it wasn't Vivaldi this time lol

I’m sorry for the things I did after the breakup. I’m sorry for staying there emotionally thinking you were too. I’m sorry I couldn’t truly let you go emotionally when I should’ve. I always put you first above everyone and subconsciously I expected the same from you but it’s your right to move on and be happy without…