Unsent text message to Trevor

I’m sorry for the things I did after the breakup. I’m sorry for staying there emotionally thinking you were too. I’m sorry I couldn’t truly let you go emotionally when I should’ve. I always put you first above everyone and subconsciously I expected the same from you but it’s your right to move on and be happy without…

BDAY TO YOUUUUUUUU

🎁🎊🌟🌟🎉♥️💕🥰🎈😍🎂🎉🎁🎊🎈🎂🍰🧁🍰🧁✨✨✨💖💖💖

Love you

Always & Forever ♾️

I hope you keep me blocked forever. I hope you never bother me again. I didn't realize it was all fake to you or I would have never talked to you in the first place. I never had an intention of making you feel obligated to me. I thought we were having fun and falling in love. I didn't realize that you were saying all…

i have nothing to say. not right now. not tomorrow. not on tuesday.

i can't think of a single thing i want to say to you. i don't want to share music with you anymore. i don't want to rate our days. i don't want to hear you shrink my box even more.

maybe i'll just stare at a wall. or you. until i start crying. and…

I finally remembered my god dang safe word. Banana, it was banana. Weird, I know but please for the love of God, this is me using my safe word.

You know what else really ******* sucks about all of this? The shame and embarassment I feel for myself for feeling how I felt about you and how kind and generous I was with you when in the end you didn't give a **** at all.

I don't think you did anything with any malicious intent but I still feel tricked, lied to. Why…