Unsent text message to Robert

You are embarrassing and so much older than me . I hate your personality. I don’t want to get to know you.

It's been four hours now since I've wandered through your place And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face I do love you I do love you And when you play guitar I listen to the strings buzz The metal vibrates underneath your fingers And when you crochet I feel…

You are 40 years old claiming nobody could possible understand you because you’re so deep and dark and mysterious. It’s completely transparent that you want me to chase you even though you constantly come back cause the truth is I don’t have the care to raise you.

Be a real man and own who you are. I don’t have time…

You genuinely suck. You can’t even send me a single song without some passive aggressive comment about how you think you’re better than me for your “deep and dark” taste I couldn’t possible understand. And all this coming from a ******* 40 year old dork

I can’t text you. It’s clear you don’t want to talk. But something feels off about you. I can’t explain it. I still care, and I always will. I miss you and just hope you’re okay.

For the rest of my life. I’m going to hold my breath around every corner. I am going to hold out hope that you will come for me, for us.