Unsent text message to Nicole

I let you put me in a box Drawing all my lines I worked so hard just to please you And told myself I was fine You showed me off to strangers and friends Taking credit for what god had done I didn’t feel strong or fortunate or brave I just wanted to be normal for once But normal wasn’t something that you could give…

if you cannot bother to remember that i cannot take pain medication EVERY time i tell you, why tf do you send me a thousand messagss asking about my surgery? it kinda comes off like you're just trying to annoy me while i'm suffering

we're at the stage of things where i've finally started opening up to other people. where enough bait has been dangled for me that i'm hanging on the hook, gasping for air. and i'm being reminded that there's no chance for it to be me. so now i've started rejecting people i would have said yes to, again. and the next…

Hi I know you’ll never see this but I think you’re really cute. I always see you on my bus to college and you stand out so much especially with that long brown hair. I think it really suits you and i WISH i could pull the same thing off. You’re handsome and you seem so full of joy but i’m too scared to even talk to…

i just want something to be for me. and to know it's for me. and to know it's you who wants me to know it's for me. i go a little crazier every time i think i see it. i go a little crazier hoping. and. idk how to tell you it's you i want. because you took that choice from me. so i just assume that's not what you want.

Would you like to come over and use my face as a chair? In the most loving way possible....