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The whispers in the wind keep telling me to stop posting.. but for some reason I don’t obey them.
The pictures got a message across. Totally spotted the entire week after those were posted. Now every time I get wound up over being heart broken over him that happens. Starting to think I might actually be knocked up again after those lab test results. Did I manifest a baby with the ex I never got over? 😂😂😂 Because I haven’t consciously been with anyone in just shy of 6 years.
TMI but this whole situation was pretty messed up. At least the toxic marriage was ditched after Happy New Year.
Had a dream once that I got on the flight to Bowling Green last minute with the tickets his mom bought the time in Washington Dulles around Thanksgiving.. at least I think it was a dream. Most know how easy it is to “mind wipe” me if it is traumatic/upsetting. Might remember fully in 20 years.
But until then will just “anonymously” make an *** of myself on social media. At least that way I have control over my own demise for still loving him. This sucks.
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