Unsent text message to Steven

Hey Babe,

You’ve probably noticed my absence today, I’ve certainly noticed yours…

I suppose this, whatever “this” is, is now transitioning into a permanent ending.

Every ounce of my mental capacity has been thrown at your escape hatch. It has thrown me through a loop and I don’t know what to think anymore. I’m frozen…

It would be for you to see yourself how I see you. Even just a tiny itty bitty glimpse.

Sweet dreams. Let's try again tomorrow

Would you like it if I texted you? Unblocked you and reached out? Or would you be cold and break my heart again?

to go for a walk in the rain?

escape the eyes prying to understand our pain?

You said you needed space and Im going to respect this time. As much as it hurts I know this space is also good for me. Gives me time to process things without offloading it all on you.

At first all I could see was what you did wrong, every time you left me to wonder while you just stopped communicating. I’ve been self…