Unsent text message to Connor

to go for a walk in the rain?

escape the eyes prying to understand our pain?

You said you needed space and Im going to respect this time. As much as it hurts I know this space is also good for me. Gives me time to process things without offloading it all on you.

At first all I could see was what you did wrong, every time you left me to wonder while you just stopped communicating. I’ve been self…

Why are all your stories of what you overheard and never your own?

Saw you today on the other street Recently, i listened to your posted videos and felt sad, even cried. I wish that you won’t be sad anymore and find the love you yearn for.

You just felt sorry for me.

You don't love me.

Take it back.

Say you don't love me.

I don't want to make it awkward when you come around or embarass the both of us. But I'll keep nice and friendly for you because this is the new me you see. Please heed my smile with a smile and my wave or hello with the equal gesture or more if you have anything for me. I at least wanna know. Please man up and don't…