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You said you needed space and Im going to respect this time. As much as it hurts I know this space is also good for me. Gives me time to process things without offloading it all on you.
At first all I could see was what you did wrong, every time you left me to wonder while you just stopped communicating. I’ve been self reflecting lately and I start to see the places where I fell short. Not out of regret more out of facts. Slowly I understand what the point you brought up were really about.
I’m not gonna lie I miss you a lot. I can continue to live my life without you and I will. A lot of things have happened since we stop talking that I wish I could share with you.
I got a new PB on my 5k! I finally ordered the gravel and it’s coming this week. I got my award. I want apple picking and hiking. I went out with my friends.
I hate that we both still have to live at the same place tho. Even if we don’t talk I should go to continue to believe the version of who you were in the last week we were together. People are already starting rumours. Someone told me you said I was crazy.. which is crazy because you would never say that. At least not the version of you I know. I don’t know how much you’ve changed since the break up.
I wish we’d talk. I still want to be with you but not right now. I need to work on myself and my anxiety. I hate how I feel like it was the main thing that lead to you needing more and more space but I don’t regret anything still. I loved you with all my heart and always made sure to show you how you were the first priority to me.
Have a good day my love, hopefully we can talk soon when we are both in better places.
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