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I’m sorry for upsetting you by sending those things. I never meant to hurt you or make you feel guilty. I think, honestly, I was just trying to find some way to give myself the closure I couldn’t seem to find on my own, so I could finally let go and move forward. The hardest part is accepting that someone I cared about so deeply didn’t feel the same way about me. But I don’t blame you for that. You can’t force someone to feel something they don’t, and I never wanted my love for you to become a burden you had to carry. I just want you to know that what I felt was real. I loved you very much. Maybe more than I ever knew how to express in a way that felt safe or comfortable for you. And despite everything that happened between us, I will always be grateful for the moments when you let me feel close to you. They meant more to me than you probably ever realized. I’m so sorry about your loss. More than anything, I wish I could have been the person you needed when you were hurting. I wish I could have been a safe place for you to land, even just for a little while. But I understand now that I’m not that person for you, and as painful as that is, I have to respect it.
I loved you (no not that way). And I’m sorry that I’ve had such a hard time letting go. I’ve just had so much loss too . I loved you so much.
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