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Hey dude. Yk I barely use discord but you use it a lot. I've recently started using it a lot again bc that's where I make calls with my classmates for group projects lol. Anyway, recently I was on a call and istg I got so distracted by that little green dot that shows that you're active. I always want to reach out so ******* bad and I just stare at it for minutes, wondering if you're okay, if you'd reply a text...idk
Inm don't have that green dot activated only because I feel like if I did you'd realize I still use that ******* app and would block me there. I know it pathetic but I just want to feel like I still have a way back to you, even when I know I won't take it because it's better for the best of us.
I think about you more often that I'd want to. I remember the time you told me you dreamed about me while awake, that you imagined how it would be to have the weight of my body on your chest while you hold me in your arms. Where did that sweet version of you go?
I still wish to see you honestly, and I know you hope you don't know anything about me ever again but sometimes I hope I haunt you, just a little bit.
Have a nice start of October, K. Hope your nephew is healthy and happy
Love you
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