Unsent text message to Owen

We were together for almost 14 years. It's only been three months but I want to try with someone new but I feel so freaking worthless after being left for someone else. I don't really know how I move on. I don't want to drag someone else down but I also want to find someone I can be happy with too. I wish this feeling…

I should have accepted that you ended things but my heart hoped we could find a way. I was happy and enjoyed every second we were together. I continue to text, begging and pleading for you to come back. I now see I was in a fight I could never win. She is the mother of your child and you need to be there for them. I…

You were going to tell me how your thing today went

I miss you. I hope you know I'm not mad at you or hold anything against you. I really hope that not hearing from you means that everything is getting better on your side. I'm always here for you 🩵🤍

And you accused me of not being over my ex?

The projection is almost impressive.

You spent so much time questioning whether I was still stuck on someone else, all while apparently carrying a torch bright enough to light up the whole damn room.

That's the funny thing about projection: eventually, the accusation starts…

Girl…I just want a hug from you…nothing else. It’s hard to face there will never be an us - EVER. There’s something I feel about me and you. Boundaries set in ink across the board won’t allow it. Plus, you would think I was crazy if you knew what my feelings were.