Unsent text message to Shane

You were outside work, lounging in the sunshine, talking on the phone. Turquoise top. Blue jeans. Looking so ******* beautiful.

For a second, everything in me wanted to walk over to you. To say hello. To hear your voice. To see you look at me.

But I didn't.

I walked away because I know you don't want to see me. I know…

Here I am again. These past few days have not been the greatest for me. You were in my dreams three nights in a row. And honestly I don’t know why.

You already showed me that you don’t give a **** about me, and you never loved me the way you always claim to. You abandoned me after 5 years together and couldn’t even…

Can I level with you? I have genuinely missed you. Things have reached a point where I don’t even know what to say to you, and wanting to say exactly the right thing has led to me saying nothing for fear of saying the wrong thing has led to saying nothing. I am sorry that I didn’t respond more strongly to what that…

Remember you said " I've got me a clog wearing man" lol. That made me smile for so long after. Even now, over 3 years later, it makes me smile. You wouldn't think it to look at me but i have good taste. I look so good too. You made me smile so much. Then i started realizing you weren't well. I remember the first time…

I saw that punk Tim at the store.didnt he say he was going to beat my *** lol?He just froze and stood there in fear.I just smirked with my evil grin and went about my business.I don’t know if he is that feeble oron that phenty like I heard,but I think he needed a team lift for that cat litter.Lonely cat dude.

I've been keeping busy. My social life has bounced back, I got a promotion at work...

I brought a man home from a party on Sunday. It felt so strange having another man in my bed. He had a small d and it made me miss YOU.

You and I used to fit so well together. I almost texted but then that would have left me feeling…