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You never got to see the way you changed who I was as a person. I didn't know you for more than a few months, but I'm still glad I did. You changed my fundamentals, my views, and Morales. You changed the way I saw the world, because it was so much brighter with you around. Even in the dead of night, as long as you were there somewhere, I never had anything to fear. You were the one who was always awake, always answered the phone when I called, ****, even before I screwed up with you, you'd still try and help me out even though you didn't have an obligation to. I loved you in ways you probably couldn't understand, I confessed those feelings to you, and I probably shouldn't have. Given the circumstances of our relationship, I probably shouldn't have even locked in on you for so long.
You helped me see the world differently because no matter how bad **** was, you always kept your cool. I nick named you my patron Saint, and I know you weren't fond of that name, but it meant something to me more than it did to you. You were the embodiment of love, you were patient, kind, and compassionate with everyone and you never even had to try. Every time I was with you, I felt a feeling that I never felt, the feeling of not being alone and being the only person to you in that moment. You taught me a lot about grounding. Even in the situations I'd begin to loose my cool, you'd stay grounded and somehow talk me through it, even though no one else really has that ability for me. You should know, you were there lol.
I always bog the screen down with words with you, because all I really ever think about is the positive energy you had. You didn't leave me with too many bad memories, and I mean sometimes I wish you did so I could have let go. You leaving me on opened the last message I sent, gave the message you were sending though I think. You said the door was always open, but I'm not to sure now, but all I'm left with are these stupid thoughts in a dark room, sitting, waiting, and wishing
\-The Rambler
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