Unsent text message to Addison

Spilled them everywhere.

You kicked them aside and pretended not to see it.

I'll clean up my own mess and learned to never be honest and vulnerable with you as "You don't know how to respond"

So you just ignore…

Drove past the places we once met each other and were once happy together. I felt tears in my eyes and sadness in my chest. I miss you S.

Lately when we talk I’ve been having a feeling.. something that causes a hitch in my breath because it feels like we’re right on the edge. The edge of admitting how we truly feel. Not too long ago you started by telling me you had something to talk to me about… it felt like an almost confession from you. Then after…

G T if you wana keep me blocked go ahead, if that’s what it takes to forget the utter cruel hurt you caused traumatising me so you don’t have to deal with the guilt. I guess it just means you no longer deserve my loyalty. Take that as you will. GP

I miss you. I know you miss me too. I'm still thinking of you. I still want you. I want to kiss you. I imagine you hugging me real tight. Can you say something to me please. Come out wherever you are.

At some point I became apathetic. It’s not that I didn’t want to communicate… I just didn’t know how to. We always had an estranged manner of communicating you and I.

I never wanted you to be angry or resentful. I’m sorry I made you feel that way. I never wanted to make you the bad guy. I am a coward.

At some point the…