Unsent text message to Jason

I chose the militia.

Because everyone else was just following orders.

And too scared too fight for their streets.

With their families in the cross fire…

I’m going to be okay. You’re going to be okay, too. Everything happens for a reason and this is but a passing moment and phase in a long life full of experiences.

Be good, seek good. Stay positive. You are loved.

That’s what you had said to me once . I was just looking at all the colored leaves on the river and saw one spinning , heard your voice in my head and thought , that’s me !

You're on my mind every time I hear this song, and hearing it live this past weekend brought me to tears. A mixture of happy and sad ones. Gooosh it was such a surreal experience, it was so beautiful. I know we're no longer part of each other's lives, but I'll always have love for you and be grateful for the memories…

I want to try again. Please. I am begging you.

I won’t text you today, if you wanted to talk to me you’d reach out. I hope you’re happy, seriously. But I’d be lying if I said I don’t miss you.