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Not going to lie after I've made acceptance of us drifting away to our own lives, ive haven't really thought about you in months. Im on adventures and hanging with friends, life is super good! But recently you just randomly appeared in my dream, and then suddenly I start thinking about you again.
Its weird, I begin to deeply miss staring into those beautiful eyes when we would get lost in deep conversations. The way you would laugh contagiously about the silly things we'd joke about. Or the times we would share our deepest vulnerable secrets with each other and just lay in the car listening to our favorite music.
Why is it that when I think about these things I start to fall in love with you again. And in all honesty, im trying to push those feelings as far away as possible, because theres no way we could ever be together again. The universe shut us down for that so we must move on right? So how come I can't feel things like this with any other person but you? It doesn't make sense. I hate feelings and emotions, they really suck.
And the universe is ******* me off with trying to bring those memories back, when I clearly have better things to be doing than this bs.
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