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Hey, I miss you so much. You were my first serious relationship, I don’t hold a grudge against you for burning out or getting tired of us because I played a part in that too.
I’m trying to respect your decision but I can see that this is painful for you as well. You said you still love me, and I believe it, otherwise, you wouldn’t have cried when suggesting we break up or pulled away from my very last kiss.
Our two years together weren’t easy. I remember how, instead of saying "thank you" for a dinner, I’d get criticized for dirty dishes, how you’d go out with friends for 10 hours and barely answer me, and how you’d tell me your plans at the very last minute, leaving me in shock.
You didn't know any other way. And I didn't know how to control my jealousy or calm myself down after crying, which made you feel guilty all the time even when you weren't the cause.
With you, I felt at home, your hands and your face became so dear to me, and I still can't get used to the idea that you aren't mine anymore. Things are probably easier for you now that the source of your constant tension (me) is gone, but I truly hope your love for me proves stronger than the fear of repeating the negative experiences of our past because I am ready to change for the sake of our happiness.
I’m ready for whatever happens next, I don’t intend to sit by the window waiting for you forever, but I hope that by sticking to "no contact," I might see you come back to me, my love.
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