iMessage
I know you all know the real me and you’ve probably started noticing what a manipulative lying pos I am turning into. One who’s selfish, cold and in a constant state of melancholy.
I am scared ******** , but this is something I did to myself. I don’t want to cause anymore hurt. All of you mean the world to me, and I don’t want to cause anymore hurt. Whatever little semblance of the old me that’s left is screaming out, and Im going to listen.
If I don’t answer or pick up your call, Im not ignoring you guys. Im just doing my best to heal and focus on getting better. I’ve found amazing resources. I don’t like the person I see staring back at me. Im angry at myself for causing you all such heartache and worry.
Please, please know I love you guys, please don’t forget that.
But, Im slowly changing, I feel it, and before it’s too late I gotta take responsibility and fix this mess. I realise my lofe want that bad to begin with, Im just a needy immature person who wanted the world handed to me.
Message Unsent