Unsent text message to Charles

Talking on the phone all night. But we have to be "mature" and "evolved". We have to "take it slow" and "do it right". UGH.

So very much. We want you home.

~Zinnia 2

I have a lovely hospital bill I get to be paying off for the next 22 months!!! 22 of remembering what happened while I’m trying to move on with my life! Everyday I remember what happened while I take my medication. YOU GET TO JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE! You get to just 100% forget I ever existed or was in your life!! You…

hey, can you come get me? i don't want to do this alone

I know that it sucks.

I know that soul crushing feeling when your entire being yearns for what it can not have.

I know how all consuming it is.

The never-ending whirlwind of racing thoughts…

I noticed a familiar pattern happening. I appreciate the closure you gave me and listening to me over the last few days. All the best for you, and I'll be there if you need someone, but not interested in continuing around this circle again as it is. Stepping back completely. Goodnight.