Unsent text message to Hannah

I have a lovely hospital bill I get to be paying off for the next 22 months!!! 22 of remembering what happened while I’m trying to move on with my life! Everyday I remember what happened while I take my medication. YOU GET TO JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE! You get to just 100% forget I ever existed or was in your life!! You…

hey, can you come get me? i don't want to do this alone

I know that it sucks.

I know that soul crushing feeling when your entire being yearns for what it can not have.

I know how all consuming it is.

The never-ending whirlwind of racing thoughts…

I noticed a familiar pattern happening. I appreciate the closure you gave me and listening to me over the last few days. All the best for you, and I'll be there if you need someone, but not interested in continuing around this circle again as it is. Stepping back completely. Goodnight.

Once i thought you were the best "almost" i've ever/never had... today i found out you cheated.

Sobra akong nanghihinayang na 2 years ago, we did not get our chance. Sabi pa natin dati, sana kung pwede na, pwede pa. Tinanong kasi kita noon kung may nakikita ka bang future sa akin, at sinabi mo wala. I got tired of…

That’s all I wanted. All I was begging for was just some acknowledgment of my feelings and what caused the hurt. I wasn’t even worth a conversation, let alone the truth. That’s what hurt the most, I’m not even worth the time to you.