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I know that it sucks.
I know that soul crushing feeling when your entire being yearns for what it can not have.
I know how all consuming it is.
The never-ending whirlwind of racing thoughts.
The sleepless nights
The despair
I know it all.
I'm actively living it, too.
But you know what?
I can accept it.
I'm not fully there yet in my heart, but I know it's the only logical path, so it's the path I choose on treading.
He doesn't deserve any less just because he doesn't feel the same.
He is a human being who deserves his autonomy, and he has every right to be true to himself.
I'm not entitled to him, just as you are not entitled to me.
It wouldn't feel right to be with someone who had to be convinced to be with me anyways.
We should choose those who choose us.
But I truly wish him the absolute best either way.
Not like you
I'm never going to take this feeling and use at as an excuse.
Not to guilt trip.
Not to control.
Not to justify burning down everything in my path.
Nor to justify blatant abuse, either.
Because I'm not you.
I won't ever be anything like you, even though I could be.
And that's the greatest gift I could ever give to myself.
May karma grant you all that you've earned.
✌️
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