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Once i thought you were the best "almost" i've ever/never had... today i found out you cheated.
Sobra akong nanghihinayang na 2 years ago, we did not get our chance. Sabi pa natin dati, sana kung pwede na, pwede pa. Tinanong kasi kita noon kung may nakikita ka bang future sa akin, at sinabi mo wala. I got tired of walking on eggshells dahil i was doing my best to be ready and make space for you in my life pero ikaw gusto mo go with the flow lang.. puro dahilan..puro sablay. So I left. And i regretted it nang sobra. I missed you but stayed firm on my choice. You would've been my first ever partner.. i thought you were my shot at love.
We stayed mutuals and I watched you jump from soft to hard launches after we ended and feel the same familiar ache every time. A month ago i finally let you go kasama ng lahat ng what ifs at panghihinayang. Kasi graduate na ako. Graduate na ako sa'yo. I blocked you on all platforms na we're connected in. Para wala na tayong access sa buhay ng isa't isa.
Today... just today. A post passed by my fyp. Para bang tadhana na makita ko yun. Your girlfriend or now ex.. exposed you for cheating. The post garnered pretty high engagement and all comments were full of hate towards you. The face i once learned to memorize, i once longed to touch, the smile i that brightened me up... pinagppiyestahan ng mga tao ngayon. She posted receipts of what you did. I read each one in shock and disbelief.
Sabi nga ni taylor swift, "wondering if i dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life?"
For two years i've been thinking it was the latter. Now, i guess it was the former. Buti na lang sumablay tayo. Hope God cures the heart of those you've hurt.
Graduate na ako.
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