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I’ve removed you like 2-3x bc I hate how avoidant you are and tell myself I deserve someone who can give me the attention I want, but I always miss you. You literally told me you’re not good for my mental health, I guess there’s some truth to that after all.
After removing you the last time, I instantly regretted it so I texted you & got no response. I requested to follow you on ig & it’s still pending. I just want you back in my life, I’m sorry.
It’s been weeks & wish you’d text me, send me a request, anything but I’m sure you’re still angry and sick if this cycle. You told me you wanted me but can’t give me what I need. I’ll always want you, too. I’ll always wish we got the chance to meet irl after all these years. I need to let it all go but it’s always been you, since high school. We’re 28 & 30 now. How can someone mean so much to me even though we’ve always been states apart?
So much has happened in the last month that I wish I could tell you-I had surgery, my soul dog passed away. I genuinely miss your company. You only ever texted me back every few days but I still miss updating you and yapping. You felt safe to me. I’m too scared and ashamed to reach out to you again and I’m sure you’ll never even read this, but I needed to get this out of my head.
The door will always be open for you. You’ll never call but if you did, I’d answer.
\-S🐚
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